My baby is 6 months old. These pictures make me want to cry, and brush the hair out of his eyes.
I got him to smile in this picture by making the "bleh" throw-up sound, which he loves for some reason.
I love these next few. He's got his business face and his party legs.
I can't tell you how many times I've seen Tony make this exact same face (next picture).
"Mom, I need the camera."
"Fine. I'll just lay here with my feet and look like daddy."
Pictures of him these days capture his quiet, inquisitive side that's coming out more and more, but what they don't capture is the constant wiggles and the gleeful squealing and the regular squealing and the silliness. Trust me though, it's all there.
And now, to you my boy.
The word of the day is BIG. You are just big. You are tall and round and heavy and the bright spot of the universe. You weigh 21 dang pounds and wear 12-dang-month-sized clothing with ease. I honestly think I've pulled something in my shoulder from carrying you around.
You are sweet and sure of yourself. We haven't had any episodes of stranger danger yet, although a few times you've been disconcerted by a crowd. Chances are you are a comfortable-in-small-groups person like me and dad. Usually though, you just smile at everyone, new and familiar.
*You're officially sleeping in your crib at night now, sometimes all night long and sometimes back in our bed by morning. I don't feel the need to rigidly sleep train you yet, if ever. I have the feeling we'll figure things out our way.
I don't mind getting up at night when you cry. Usually when I enter your room I can see you smiling at me from the dark. You're figuring out the sleep thing; you've never needed to be swaddled, and you're needing less and less me to position you just the right way.
When we lay down for naptimes you wear yourself out by kicking and looking around. You play with my hands and touch my face and look out the windows or at the ceiling fan, and then when you're ready to sleep you roll to face me still gripping my fingers.
In fact, you love holding my hands. When we're nursing you're not settled until your free hand finds my fingers.
You also love your own hands. Lately you sometimes stop whatever you're doing and just inspect them, turning them over and slowly wiggling your fingers. It is exactly precious.
The other word of the day is rolling. You are very good at it. You roll to your stomach and push up with your hands. Sometimes you stick your butt up in the air and smoosh your face into the floor. I think before long you'll be crawling, which is completely ridiculous and you should stop it right now.
Last week you were sick for the first time, and it was hard. I hated it. You were restless and your nose ran and you coughed and you had a fever and you cried. But while that was hard, it was also another reminder to be grateful to be dealing with only a cold. So many other families have to deal with much, much worse.
We've started you on some solid foods now, and you've seemed to like just about everything we've tried so far. Rice cereal and oatmeal, bananas, apples, pears. Prunes, because you NEVER EVER POOP. (Edit: I retract this statement, definitely.) Grandma even gave you cheerios. This new 'big kid food' phase scares me because it means you're growing up, and I'm sad. But at the same time, I'm excited and happy for you. Motherhood is very confusing.
* I wrote this post on the 18th and didn't get the pictures taken until yesterday, and in that 10 day difference almost everything I said about never sleep training you have been voided. Suddenly you were waking up crying multiple times a night and just would not stay asleep. So we tried bringing you back in bed with us most of the night where you still never really settled down and so I would get no sleep. And after just a few nights of that I sent Tony a text that said: "We're going to sleep train James."
And James is a perfect child. Because I had decided to do a cry-it-out-with-checks version of sleep training and was prepared for some difficult nights of non-stop screaming, and instead it's like 2 days later and you're putting yourself to sleep in your crib (for nights AND naps) like a seasoned pro. You're in bed by 6:30 and wake up at 3 to eat, and then sleep again until 6 when we have to wake up for work. PERFECT. I love you. Please don't change again.
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Monday, October 29, 2012
Friday, July 6, 2012
If you can find a point, you win a prize.
My name is Kayla, and I'm having a moment where I feel I should be recording my thoughts and what-not via blog post, but I'm almost 100% positive that whatever it is I'll try to say will end up not being said, on account of my brain and things. Sometimes there are just too many words and too many possible sentence variations, which makes me want to give up before I start.
Things I would like to do:
- actually redesign the blog so that it looks good
- post lots and lots of pictures all the time
- write cute little stories about my day
- try yet again to put into words how much I love my son
- maybe a post about my freshly painted living room?
Things that I feel my life has no time for:
- all of the above.
I've been getting the feeling lately, in little sneaky snippets, like fairies peeking through bushes, that I'm living a fantastic life. Fantastically bad, and fantastically wonderful, and all of that all at different times and the same time. Motherhood has magnified it. Did you know that my baby giggled when I made a funny sound at him today? Two and a half months ago he was lying on my stomach taking his first crying breaths, and today he's looking me in the eyes and laughing as we copy each others' sounds. A year ago he was microscopic. If that isn't magical then I don't know what. And my body grew him. God sent me that little spirit, and my body used materials it had on hand (and borrowed from his daddy) and created a tiny little body and grew it big enough until it could handle itself, and now I can hold it in my arms and it smiles at me. IT'S MAGICAL, IS WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY.
People, for real. Just feel the love with me.
Also, the sweet little lady from Yugoslavia who lives in the house behind us, who sings and yells at her dog every day while she gardens, sent over the fence a cute little outfit for James. How she even knew we had a baby, I don't know. Not only does she know, but she went shopping for him! Who does that?
Life is cool.
(P.S. Anyone know where a girl can get one of those cute Panama-y straw fedoras I'm seeing all the cute people wear these days?)
Things I would like to do:
- actually redesign the blog so that it looks good
- post lots and lots of pictures all the time
- write cute little stories about my day
- try yet again to put into words how much I love my son
- maybe a post about my freshly painted living room?
Things that I feel my life has no time for:
- all of the above.
I've been getting the feeling lately, in little sneaky snippets, like fairies peeking through bushes, that I'm living a fantastic life. Fantastically bad, and fantastically wonderful, and all of that all at different times and the same time. Motherhood has magnified it. Did you know that my baby giggled when I made a funny sound at him today? Two and a half months ago he was lying on my stomach taking his first crying breaths, and today he's looking me in the eyes and laughing as we copy each others' sounds. A year ago he was microscopic. If that isn't magical then I don't know what. And my body grew him. God sent me that little spirit, and my body used materials it had on hand (and borrowed from his daddy) and created a tiny little body and grew it big enough until it could handle itself, and now I can hold it in my arms and it smiles at me. IT'S MAGICAL, IS WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY.
People, for real. Just feel the love with me.
Also, the sweet little lady from Yugoslavia who lives in the house behind us, who sings and yells at her dog every day while she gardens, sent over the fence a cute little outfit for James. How she even knew we had a baby, I don't know. Not only does she know, but she went shopping for him! Who does that?
Life is cool.
(P.S. Anyone know where a girl can get one of those cute Panama-y straw fedoras I'm seeing all the cute people wear these days?)
Saturday, May 26, 2012
Things to think when babies sleep on you
I always suspected, and now I know for sure. Like for sure, for sure; with the same sureness that I know pancakes are better with peanut butter, and that even the cutest sweater in the world isn't worth an ounce of your time if it makes you itch. Some things we just know about ourselves. Even when it gets right down to the minute and you start to doubt the thing you've always known, it's still there and when you get to the other side of whatever it is you're crossing it'll smack you in the face with how much you've always known it. And I, my friends, always suspected and now really know that I was meant to be a mother.
Not that I am now or will ever be a perfect mother. I imagine they'll have to invent all new names for the mistakes I'll make. But there's no denying this solid feeling in my bones, the kind of feeling you get when you realize a core truth about your life. I'm lying here on our futon couch in our little red house with my infant son on my chest, and everything's crazy in a way I've never experienced before, and I'm still struggling to find the proper balance. But his little face is next to mine, and I get to kiss his baby fingers and feel the weight of his warm tiny body. It's just the best thing in the world. He snores almost as bad as his daddy and I don't care.
From almost the moment he was born I've been seeing things differently. I remember vividly the drive home from the hospital, feeling like the whole world was brand new. Even this very familiar city felt unfamiliar, and strange and fresh. Did you know that all people were babies once? Your mailman, your boss, your spouse, strangers, millionaires, hobos, serial killers: they all started out as tiny, sweet, precious babies. They all had soft skin and wide innocent eyes, eager to see things and learn things and love things. They were all more precious than gold, and (hopefully) all were held by their mothers and loved so hard they could just explode. Makes you see people in a different way, doesn't it? It makes me want to be nicer. And you, you were a baby too once. So be nicer to your own mother, if she truly loved you like a mother should or even just the best was she knew how. Cause she probably did.
I know I'm still new at this, but it's already the best thing I've ever done. My heart is constantly hurting at the wonderfulness. (It's 100 times more wonderful than being married, and if you know me you know how much I absolutely love being married.)
I don't know why I get to be so lucky, but I sure am grateful.
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