Cried and felt intensely about it (maybe (probably) influenced by the death of my kitty today.)
Feeling an urge to take up the cello. Really wishing we had a piano right now - and that we didn't have any shared walls. Thirsty for some music, I'm listening to this powerfully beautiful lady:
I downloaded a Live Sessions release from iTunes and it's exactly what I needed tonight. Listening to her makes me wish I were bluesy and played guitar and went on tour.
This is slightly unrelated. I'm just gonna say it. I've been fiercely needing some friendship lately. The real kind. Good girl talk, good deep talks, unspoken understanding and a different kind of love than the beautiful kind I share with my husband. Since marriage all the friends I had have faded away. I don't know if it's my fault or theirs - likely both. Maybe neither. I'm forgetting how to relate to people, forgetting what is socially normal and knowing I'm the one who's crippled.
I haven't wanted to rant about that anywhere to anyone for fear of sounding needy and knowing it just sounds horrible anyway. People want life to be positive. Sometimes I am not positive.
Just needed a little outlet, so thanks for letting me do that. I promise not to let it happen too much.